Hopes and Disappointment

I don`t know how to start up the day worst. To know I did some mistake in my final mistake, or to find out that I had below average marks in both my coursework for two subjects.

It`s hard to comprehend really. How did that ever happen. Getting marks below average. It`s fine (to some extend) if didn`t scored the highest. But below average. WTF. Also coupled with the fact that i actually spent some effort studying in this semester, what is the message that I`m getting?

That I`m stupid?

That I`m too arragont to realized that?

or simply, this are circumstances force on me to be humble.

I resent these. There was a glimmer of hope, that I can do well. But that hope turn into a dissapointment. It usually don`t happen. I always knew what I was getting into. Not this time. I don`t know what went wrong. I don`t know how to make it better.

I`m tired. There`s no point trying everything all over again. Enough of restart. I just want everything to end.

My first post in a protected blog

Now I can say absolutely anything I want.

But I have nothing to say at the moment. Wtf.

There was a glimmer of hope after my presentation. I`m not going to fail after all. They might be a chance of getting an A-, but even then, my gpa will drop. Bleh.

I hate setting targets that are too hard to achieve.

This space is my simple escape from the harsh reality. Expect lots of random rants and whining apart from the daily reporting of things going I`m going through.

Take nothing seriously, leave comments, or just a simple hi. The world is getting smaller by the day, why not know each other now. Have fun ya all.

Regards,
Alex