Not a sin to do that once a while right? Wait, there`s more.

Damm, I love this function. I didn`t know my phone can let me take 4 pictures in one.

Yea, and we took all this in the train. Very pda. :P

To be fair... the train was rather empty. Lala

Exams rant - you know it`s coming.

I thought last semester was bad. This is worst. I also have this fear of short semester. Why? Because we only have 2 subject this semester. Not to say it`s bad, but it`s scary. Once you screwed up one subject, your gpa is gone.

Last year, it was bad. I was extremely worried about calculus because my coursework mark was about 40/50 (80%) . Really closed to a B. Luckly, I scrap it through. This year, it`s dreadful. Much lower than last year, and the finals this time, will be dificult.

One reason is because a subject is an art subject. Draw draw and draw. Even with ulimited time, my drawing scored an average of 70%. And I need to score 87.5% to compensate my horrible coursework. Mind you, no one ever scored that high in finals. In fact, no one ever completed the finals in this subject.

Might as well say good bye to my scholarship. I do hope that they will excuse one dreadful semester.

Christmas and the Flood.

Among my friends, there were very few that was affected by the flood. To most, it’s just another disaster that had little or no concern at all. Though, I’m living in Malacca, the flood does not affect me much either. MMU is located on high grounds, so are the residential areas around it.

For those victims of the flood, a lot of felt that Christmas was rob from them. All the Christmas decoration, Christmas tree, Christmas present were scattered and destroyed. Open house and invitations were canceled and all preparation was for nothing.

However, this year, more than ever, I felt the Christmas Spirit is present. With flood destroyed so many things, gone were all dramas, hypocrisy and acting. When I read the newspaper yesterday, I nearly cried. I was happy.

In spite of all hardship, losses were turn into appreciation, celebration turned into sacrifices. Look at how many people who have actually turn up to lend a helping hand. MCA youth canceled their Christmas party, and went to help the flood victims. Some other groups of people, instead of celebrating at home, went to the centers and celebrate with them.

Christmas celebrates Jesus`s birth. We give presents to celebrate the spirit of giving, a reminder of God’s gift to humanity ( he send Jesus to die for mankind). With so much people trying to commercialize Christmas, it’s starting to lose it’s meaning. That’s why I was really happy when I learn that there are people out there, still celebrates, the true meaning of Christmas. Definitely a good reminder for the people all around, and for me.

Happy Birthday Jesus.

(p:s : I would like to thank all those who take the time and sent some greetings. It meant a lot to me. Thank you, Ching Yee, Amran, Jeff, Sully, Jan Sen, Pei Nee, Eli, Wei Pin, Fuk Fui, Claire, Aaron, Adrian, Vivian, Angel, Ivan, Ai Jen, Melanie, Aqtar, Faiz, Uncle Francis,Aunty Rose, Grace, and those whose name`s not on my phone, so I don`t know who you are. Lol. Arigato.)

Wishlist - it`s christmas after all

It`s been raining in Malacca. A lot! To be exact, we haven really seen the sun since Monday. It`s the 4th day now of perpetual rain. Alas, it finally flooded!

I was wondering yesterday. With so much rain, how come there isn`t any flood. Then again, I was living on the highlands. Sure enough, everywhere else was flooded. Tsk tsk. What more horrible is that so many roads were closed till the Malacca`s Bus Station have cease it`s operation. (and I heard the bus station itself was flooded)

You know what that means? I HAVE TO STAY HERE IN MALACCA FOR CHRISTMAS!!!!
Gosh, and I thought things couldn`t have been much worst for me. To make myself happy, I`m going to act really childish. I`ll now put a up wish list and imagine that I received all these gift magically.

I want....

1) A good earphone. I heard those really really good ones can cost up to RM 800.
2) A basketball
3) A 512mb DDR 1 ram
4) A handphone with superb camera.
5) or a super slim camera will do. (without compromising it`s quality)
6) A grand piano! mwahahahahaha]
7) A new printer.
8) Since no one will buy me a grand piano, I`ll settle for a keyboard instead.
9) A squash racquet
10) An umbrella, since it rains so much.

If you just realised, I don`t have an umbrella. So I`m soaking wet every time I goes to campus and back. Please stop raining already.. I want to go back for Christmas.. *stumps feet

Christmas on Ice

I loved ice skating. The ice rink, is one of those places that allows you to escape the horror of Malaysia`s extreme temperature. When I stop skating in form 3, due to my parents you-will-fail-PMR-if-you-ice-skate argument , I never skate much anymore. It was a decision which I definitely regret.

Actually, since the skating rink in Mines Wonderling closed down, I`ve never skate anymore. The only place left to skate is Pyramid. I hated that place. Why?

1) It inacessable. Takes 2 train trip, a bus ride and a freaking 2 hours to get there. With another 2 hours to get back, you wouldn`t have time to skate.

2) Even if you have ur own transport, the traffic jam will kill you.

3) Once you escape the traffic jam on the road, you`ll have to suffer the human jan in the rink. It`s freaking conjested.

4) You know how traffic police are just horrible, the ppl working for Pyramid Ice are worst. They are just the most rude, unfriendly, conceited and dumb Indians I ever met. Yes, there are ALL coincidentally, Indians.

And I have to pay 20 ringgit, just to suffer all that. To my dissapointment, my skating shoe`s blade have gone blunt thus I can`t use it anymore. I can`t jump, nor spin, nor practically do anything with the rental skates. Sharpening cost 50 bucks and I`m not spending any more cash on this stupid place.

So we just cam whore and make the best out of it.

The one thing I enjoyed was the ice skating show that they conduct to attract more people. Apprarently, they managed to invite the best pair skater in SE Asia, and the 8 time champion of Austrialia.

Wish I could skate like them. Jealous-nya

Modern Science found God?

When I saw the title of that talk, I was half expecting bullshits. The other half of me was curious, just in case something made sense came up. That`s why I went. I earlier half was right. It was pure crap.

He started with 'the speed of light'. Saying that speed of light is the ultimate speed. But if a UFO for example, moves at 0.8 c (speed of light) and shines a light.. won`t that be 1.8c. According to Newton`s, it should be correct, but light is the ultimate speed and thus, it`s wrong.

And he link it to God by saying, that because the foundation of science is wrong, therefore, science saying God doesn`t exist is wrong. WHAT BOLLOCKS IS THAT!!!! First of all, science never stated God doesn not exist. What a lousy way to start his speech.

Then he goes on talking about photons. I`m not going to post his entire speech here. But, in 30 minutes, he misrepresented Einstein`s theory of relativity, insulted him, and fooled the entired hall of people. There is just so many contradictions and false interpretation that I can spend 2 hours condemming how stupid he is and still wouldn`t be satisfied.

The only thing thing that made sense that night was how he attributed existance to God. The whole argument of the beginning of the universe and the point of singularity. Even that it`s contentious. But nevertheless made sense.

At the end of the day, I had two questions for him.

I always believed the same thing too. That the very fact of existance means that there must be creation and creation can only comes from God. However, if you take a step back, try pondering upon this. If one can accept that God existed, without time. He`s the beggining and he`s the end, then why not the universe. Why can`t people accept that it`s just there.

Why do people seek to prove God`s existance so much. Isn`t faith means believing. If I say 1 + 1 =2. Does it takes faith for you to believe me? So what if God exist? Will you only then start living a moral and just life?

Maybe you should ponder upon these questions too.

Enough is enough

I never thought I would ever do this.

It was a very normal tuesday ; 3-5pm ; property of material class. The lecturer kept talking to himself because no one could listen to him. The class were making noise (as usual) and for the hundreth time, the lecturer ask the class to keep quiet. The lecturer kept talking to himself because no one could listen to him. He then went around, ask everyone, any questions..

And at that point, I was so sick of his action, I raise up my hand. I spoke.

" Sir, to be perfectly honest, I don`t understand a word you say since the day I attended your class, and I believe more than half the class felt the same way too. You mumbled you way throught, the slides on the screen weren`t clear, and the students had gave up trying to guess what you are teaching. "

He then probably thought I`m must be some dumb idiot who keep failing in class and he tried to squeeze his entire 2 hours worth of lecturer in 5 minute and explain it to me.

He just doesn`t get it... I then later went on

" Sir, I`ve been scoring mostly 4.0 for my exams since I came here last year. It doesn`t shows that I`m smart, but it proves that I do care what I`m suppose to know and learn and have the capability to do so. I`ve seen lecturers teach and everyone in class pays attention... without uttering a single word. The only reason why people make noise in your class is because no one knows what you are saying. '

'Now, if I tried my best and couldn`t understand your lecture, and not one person I know understand either... then there is something very wrong with the way you teach. Like how before you talk about diffusion rate changes the solidification process, you should first talk about difussion. And when you speak.... make ur words clear. Until you do something about it , you can go round asking people to keep quiet for the rest of your life, people won`t be bothered. "

My friend said, why don`t just sign and leave the class. Why bothered. True, I could have study on my own, and probably still get a credit for the subject. But that would be totaly unfair for him, for not knowing that the whole class does not bother listening to him, and for us students, who paid to learn something from these lectures.

After all these , the lecturer somehwhat get what I said, but part of him refuse to accept that he totaly sux teaching. I just realised I did something totaly pointless. Nothing`s going to change for sure... he couldn`t and wouldn`t do anything about it. All I did was to make a fool out of myself, and wasted 2 minutes of the class`s time.

Why couldn`t I be just an average joe. Go to class, go back, do your revision, and graduate. Why make all the fuss when it`s futile. Why push the wall when you know you can`t move it. Alex, you`re just an idiot, hands down.

Prep for Care Club`s Christmas Charity Drive

Tomorrow is the day. We`re done so much up until now. Week after week of collecting junks (cloths, books etc etc) and tomorrow we`re going to sell them all. Yesterday and today was even more crazy. We sorted the items and decorated the booth. The workload is overwhelming. We started at 10am- and ended at 10pm. (that includes lunch and dinner though )

We decorate...

and decorate

till a point where Siew gave up and think he`s a cat.

no... that`s not Siew.. this is him.

We constuct our very own arch, decorated 3 partition, 8 tables, and build one snow man.

(yes, it was dark by the time we finish.. 10pm mate)

For now.. it`s empty.. I hope tomorrow it will be something like this..

All the best I hope.... it`s for the orphanages and the needy.. Christmas is a lovely time indeed :)

Phillippine momments

*warning... many many pictures. Don`t load this with a 56k modem.

The debating scene.

This, is the MMU Melaka contingent
Haque, Huan Ren, Suria, Alex, Adelene, Melanie

The mountains of Baguio.

This is the place where we spend nearly 1 week of our time, debating, enjoying. It resembles a lot like Cameron Highlands. Except, the temperature drops a little more during the night. Once, it reached 8 degrees C.

some unknown places around the mountains

The Botanical Garden

Party night, in our hotel room. Invited random people. And a choir turn up..

MMU Cyberjaya, De La Salle University and the Philippines Military Academy`s Contingent.

I suppose it is an enyoable experience after all...

USM - Achery Intervarsity Tournament

That`s the distance of our shooting target. 30 meter. The bow we are using are wooden bow, some say it`s beginner`s bow. The maximum range for it is 50 meter.

To me, 30 meter is in fact, quite far away. To my surprise, before my event, people are contesting for 70 meter, using an advance bow. The difference between a begginer`s bow and an advance bow is the maximum tension it holds. The former should be below 30, the latter about 40 pounds. 40 pounds!! that`s about 20 kg. Imagine firing an arrow, round after round, having to strain 20kg using your triseps, and support the bow and the weight using ur left wrist.

But the suprise is not that. The best archer of the whole tournament, is a girl. Beating a guy who`s a sukma player by 10 points. Imagine that. I always had in mind that guys are superior over girls in sports, particularly sports involving strenght and stamina. Maximum respect to that girl. Almost everyone pretended that their ears deceive them and or the speaker announce it wrongly when the scores was released. The scoring sheet proves it though.

I on the other hand, being the junior of MMU Melaka achery team, didn`t do quite well. I was sent to team A with the best acher`s in the club. Why I was there, I don`t know. I just know that I`m now really pressure to do well. Well, compared to team B, I did relatively ok, having higher marks and position than most of the achers there. However, compared to everyone, I was in the bottom half. Our team ended up in 4th place though. Yet, somehow, I don`t feel so guilty because even if my marks were as good as the best acher in my club, we would remain in the same position. The top 3 teams were just too good.

At 30 meters, they consistantly hit the bullseye, 10 and 9 points (the yellow circle). While I on the other hand, was having cold feet and unable to aim calmly. Resulting a few arrow missing the board entirely. My teamates screwed up a few arrorws too. Bah, if only we can collect them and shoot again....

All ended well though. An experience is needed, and it`s an experience I had. From now, I`ll train harder. Next year, MMU Melaka will top the list.

Leaving for Penang

It`s been quite some time since I visited Penang. I`ve been quite keen to go there again. One of the most obvious reason being the food :)

Will be leaving tomorrow for the Achery Intervarsity in USM. Just can`t wait to eat. The only problem is, I`m out of cash :( woo.. donations pls.. hee
I do hope I`ll get some pictures to update. Meawhile, I just receive pictures of the Phillippines from Melanie`s camerra. Anyone wants to see it?

Monkey Walk

This`s what you call it,when you see monkeys, walking on the electric cabel, one after another. There`s about 5-8 or them. As if like marching, they came from the forest and invaded Taman Dahlia. My friends quickly secure his home by locking all the windows and doors.

After the collection ends at about 1. We (the Care Club gang) had lunch at Heritage and then proceed to Makota Parade to catch a movie. Wanted to watch the new Bond, but tickets sold out less than 5 minutes before our turn.

We watch Battle of Wits instead. It was a great movie. Why is it so? Apart from all the actions and drama; it`s realistic. The battle plan, the story line, the cruelty of those times. It got me thinking. One of the things that really resonate is whether is it worth helping people. I remember Siew telling me the same thing. Is it even worth helping people and saving people. Does people even deserve to be saved?

In the movie; this guy helped to defend a country. Without motif, without agenda. He just had one teaching; which is to promote universal love. That`s why he goes city to city to defend them from being invaded. But doing so, the city defended. The enemy suffers. Yet, the enemies are still humans, and they perish. Even after all this, the king in the city he defended, got jealous of his popularity and wisdom, decided to kill him and all those that supports him. He then escapes while even more people died under the king of the city he tried to protect. And after 5 years, the city was taken again. At the end of the day, the question to be answer is this; is it even worth protecting some one. If you were a doctor; you treat the enemies, the enemy kill even more of you own people. Don`t these people`s blood stain your hands too.

Ultimately, by doing charity, or so-called save the world; it`s none other than self-serving. People just want to live a life with no regrets. People want to live saying that I`ve done my part and help other people. Whether it really change the world or not, it doesn`t really matter anymore. I`m beginning to believe, no matter what you do, the world will not be a better place. At most, you`ll probably relieve yourself and your conscience.

To be frank, I`m so tired that I really don`t feel like doing anything anymore. I want to let go of everything, just for a week. Let go of my aim in life, let go of my ideals, let go debating, let go charity, let go chess, let go games, let go examinations. I want to be free... I want to sleep... Do whatever I want. Do not think about tomrorow. Do not think about what`s right or wrong. Just wander around, aimlessly with no worries and no commitment.

But life will never be like that. Not now, not ever. My conscience will not allow it. I remember I use to read a article somewhere. It says, Life have so much of worries, that you won`t have time to remember the past and worry about tomororw. Just focus on today. Tomorrrow will have its own problems. Some one told be to take things one by one. That`s what I`m doing; and that`s why I`m also tired. There`s always something in my mind. Something that`s waiting to be done. Something that I`ve must have forgotten.

I now remember when I`ve once escape all of this. 3 years ago, during confirmation camp (church camp), my lecturer ask us to leave everything behind.. just come with some cloth and yourself. Ur not even allowed to bring a hp. Those 2 days are probably the most peaceful time I`ve had. I just sit down quietly at the church... Seconds turns into minutes. Minutes turns into hours. Times fly.. and I don`t mind it at all.

Maybe, I should take another retreat. Just to escape everything. Maybe that will help me get running again. For now, I fell, and I`m reluctant to get up.

Things to be done.

Sometimes, I`ve to much things in my head; I felt like they all are on the verge of bursting out. Literally. I sleep too little, there is so little time, and there is so many things to be done.

I`ve yet to ;

1) Inform all my chess members of the clubs`s plan this semester.
2) Finish up my Engineering Grapics Assignment.
3) Malaysian Studies Assignment
4) Vist CITS to find out the my wireless status
5) Go to Finance to settle scholarship complications.
6) Letter from FIST, to allow us to use it`s corridor for the Charity Event.
7) Decalre usage of electrical appliances to FMD.
8) Plan for MMU Chess open.
9) Practice wushu. (lag 2 months)
10) Remeber to collect items from various lecturers.
11) Decide whether to go USM for Achery or MMU cyber for Debate.
12) Study for Exam next week.

But above all.. I really want to play games.. :(

The old disease.

It has strike back. The days with no peaceful sleep. The days with black eyes and fatigue. The days where I lock myself in the room. The days of MMORPG is back.

And it`s RO again. I remember I used to skip school at play 20 hours a day. I tried so hard to leave the game. But, now I`m back in. I suppose I`ll control myself this time. I`m pretty sure now I`ll still go to class; after all, I have a laptop with me.

What worries me is that I`ll bring the laptop and play game at class. Seeing how boring class is, I probabbly will. Good luck, exams soon :) Alex stop playing!


With so many events coming up, I have to sacrifice some. I really want to go all of them. And some of the best events are up this weekend. All in this weekend.

1) Watersports having a camp at Pulau Besar. It would be really nice, if I have friends to go with, and time to spare. To be fair, I knew some one who ask me to go... the only problem is I can`t.

2) Cyber Debate Camp. Gosh, I can`t believe I`m going to miss this one. This is horrible... I`m sure they`re going to finish all the alcohol which they bought in the Phillippines.

3) Wushu Training Camp. It`s more like, lets go together to do beach and kick some ass kind of trip. Kick ass and in really kicking. I`m not so sure if they`re not out of their mind, but last I heard is they really plan to storm the beach and practice wushu there. Something like you see in the endings of those Wong Fei Hong movies.

The reason why I can`t go to any of them. I had to go around Bukit Beruang to collect stuff for donation this weekend. I wanted to run away, but I can`t cuz I`m the one that suggest this activity and currently now the director. Ish...... Menyesal.. but what can I do... responsibility is responsibility. Hopefully it`ll turn out great :) I`m sure we can have fun in our own ways....

I want a laptop.

I`m shopping for a laptop now. Why? Because class are extremely bored. Really really really bored. I`m always sitting at the corner, alone, staring and wondering why am I still in class, in every lecture.

A more logical excuse will be that I want to read my lecturer notes in my laptop because it`s too expensive and too much of a hassle to print them. Though of course, this excuse doesn`t not worth rm 3000. So I guess, the first reasons holds more truth.

Anyway, the specs. I`m looking for ;

- at least a centrino with 1.8 ghz or better.
- a decent graphic card.
- 1ghz of ram.
- 14.1 inch lcd
- no heavier than 2.5kg

That`s all. Isn`t it simple. There`s loads of notebooks that could match this spec. The only problem is that it could not match the price I`m willing to offer.. lol. I`m broke you see. I want to spend only about 2k :) Currently, I had one in mind.. will see about it. But having a laptop will be really nice :) and convinient. I could now do all my work in campus without having to run to CITS or the Library for computer.

Why I hate stupid lecturers.

Over the months, my respect for lecturers have gone down to the drains. Not all of them though. There are still a fraction of them which I held them with great respect. I`m talking about those few who sux.

To a certain extend, I don`t really mind lecturer that can`t really teach that well, but there know what there are doing. Which means, there are probably really good engineers but not a good teacher. That I can still tolerate. What piss me off is when I get lecturers, who are these so called Masters and even PHD holders, but don`t even know the basics of the subject they teach.

I always have at least one of these type of lecturer in my class every semester. They teach the class something stupid and wrong, then I`ll have to spend 10 minutes argueing that they are teaching the wrong thing. And to proof you how stupid they are, they don`t even realised their mistake after I proof to them and tell them why they are wrong. Even an average student who sits beside me understands when I go through such extend of explanation.

The lecturer will then check the answer, come back to me tomororw, say that I`m right, and do nothing about it. This whole notion pisses me off not because I want to proof that I`m smart and they are dumb. It`s the very fact that they are lecturers. That means, whatever they teach, affects 200 students in the class. Which means, they must be 100% sure of what they are teaching and make sure it`s right.

And what really really dissapoints me is that after I went through all these trouble, of making sure the lecturer teaching the class the right thing, I told my friends that the lecturers answer is wrong, here the correct working. Guess what`s their reply. They say it doesn`t matter. Because whatever the lecturer teach, if I follow him, even if it`s wrong, I can`t be penalised for it since they thought us so.

The students, they don`t care whether they are doing the right thing. They don`t even care if the theories are flawed. All they care is about passing their exams and their stupid GPA. Why am I such a fool to even make an effort to change that. Alex, you`re an idiot. Sit quietly in class from now on. Baka baka baka......

Some random post.

I believe I have rarely done this. All my post are either some reports of what I`ve done, or whines about why my life sux.

Decided to find a few pictures and randomly post it. Here goes.

This is one of my favorite pictures. Don`t you think it`s so adorable. The bear is studying, while the dog is being lazy and just lying around.

This is a board game called ... shite I can`t remember. Something to do with world domination.

This, is a marshmallow, on top of my lcd. I`ve no idea why I took this picture.

This is my another dog, thinking whether she could commit suicide if she jumps from there.

This, is a blurry picture taken by a very expensive camerra but a lousy photographer. As of now, I`m still trying to remember the name of the girl in the picture. All I remembered is that she`s cute and she took picture with me. Sigh.

Gosh.. why am I even doing this.. what a waste of time.. bleh.

Anime obsession

I`m watching too much anime. As a result, I have none to watch anymore... ish....

Maybe it`s a good thing. Last week, I spend an average 6 hours watching them. Rewatch Naruto, Ruruoni Kenshin and Full Metal Alchemist. What happen then is this, I skipped 6 hours of classes, didn`t get enough sleep, and a back ache.

There is a tiring sem. There is so much work to do. For academic, I found out that tutorials now carry marks. Means, I have to do them... and of all things, it`s Engineering Graphics. This is nightmare, I can`t freaking draw..... Maybe I`ll ask Adelene to do them for me.. .hee hee hee

What really took a toll from me is the club activities. Directing an event for Care Club for this semester and Chess Club for the next. I haven`t even really start preperation for the Open Chess Tournament yet, and I`ve been busy with Care Club. This not to mention a number of other events which I was pulled into as committee.

Sometimes I really wonder, why do I join so many things. Is it because I have no life ; ie no friends to play dota with, no friends to go out for lunch and dinner, no one to sit with in class.... that`s why I resort in joining so many activities, to seek out people who I can click with. Or is it because it`s in my nature that I just want to do everything. Or is it both?

Whatever is it, a commitment is a commitment. Since I`m in already, I shall do what I need to do, as much as I can with all my effort. I`m sure I`ll pull this through. Just settle everything.. one by one.. and everything will be ok..... I hope.

Yomae`s bday party

I thought of going to meet Claire today at Subang. It wasn`t until hours before that I was called to go Yomae`s party.

And I was thankful that I went. Not only Claire was there, lots of people which I haven`t seen for ages were there too. Ppl like, Albert, Low, Chong, Wen Yi, Vivian, Jo-n, Chermayn, Ester, Li Mei and the birthday gal herself, Yomae.

It was pretty much a girls party, with these people taking picture of everyone with everyone. The guys just sat there and watch.. and drink.

Claire and I, the one that looked like a small kid

One interesting momment of that night was the time where I was unable to recognize someone. And of all people, it`s that person.

She : Hi Alex
Me : (loudly) Eh, who`s that.
Me : ....... oh!!!!!

Damm, that was so hilarious I almost laugh to death. I`ve never thought this would happen. Oh well, I am Alex after all. Always bad at recognizing ppl.

To Melaka, and a new sem

Last semester was a horrible one. At least academic wise.

As expected, I didn`t get an A for the subject that Anal guy thought. Yet, if I follow the principle that I`ve been holding, then there is no reason for me to feel sad. For his subject, there is 3 mid term, 6 test and one final exam. That`s 10 exams in 3 months.

I`ve missed two of them, without replacement, because he refuse to give, even with valid reason and permission from him himself. But even that, it should be ok. Why I didn`t get a B. Because I didn`t do his work. Why I can still score other subject with (A+ mind you) with the same atitiude but not his? Simple.. cuz he`s anal.

Let me give you an idea what I meant. In my 10 test, I only had 2 mistake... but most of them, I got it correct. Meaning, there is no ' X ' in my paper.. But, he minus more than 20% every paper because he felt the working wasn`t enough.

Often it happens like this. The question ask you to give the force of a beam. He expect you, not only to give the force, but the draw the force, tell the direction, and give the nature of that beam. Seriously, at least if you want that, tell it in the question.

Well, no one to blame.. at least, I knew what I was doing and that should matters. Though, frankly speaking, I`m still quite sad for getting a B+. It`s been quite sometime since I`ve gotten a B, and I never like those time either.

Maybe next semester, till then, I pray that I won`t get the same lecturer again.

What happen the rest of the days....

Well, in simple words, debate`s over, loads of party, loads of alcohol, very uncomfortable sleeping night, very crampy bed, yet, very enjoyble trip.

Quite a number of things happened throughout the trip. Not all were pleasent. In fact, many were not pleasent. But for the sake of happy memories, I decided not to blog them.

Anyway, while partying on the last day of the debating championship, my friend told me that some one though I was gay. The horrible thing is, that is not the first time I`ve heard that.

In fact, a significant number of ppl had ask me the same question in the past. Damm.. do I even look gay? some say I do...

Do I act gay? some say I do also. Undeniably, I do have some traits that ought to belong to the feminist character. i.e

1) I used to enjoy talking on phone... for hours...
2) I cry a lot.. at least too much for a guy.
3) I`m emotional.. very emotional at times.

Oh well, fine what even you want to see me as. As long as I know I`m not, and Adelene of cuz, everything`s ok :) Besides.. being gays is not so bad. mwahaha.. at least I won a debate with motions involving gays.

I`m back

and I`m tired.. really tired... zzzzzzzz

Day 3 to day 7

It`s been a while since I update. There`s so much to tell but I`m just to lazy to blog. I`ll keep it simple.

Day 3
Spended the whole day looking for a shopping complex called Robinson. We literally went from one end of Metro Manila till the other..then back again. Because everytime we ask directions, we are directed to a supermarket called Robinson, not the Mall itself. Grrr. It was until 8 hours later till we finally reach there, by horse. Yeap, horse.... We travel through this means across the city. It was quite fast though, considering the fact that all the other cars were stuck in the jam.
Later in the nite, we spend our time in a bar with live band and all. Order about 10 pitcher of Zombie *a mixture of juice, rums and some cocktails.

Being MMU, we went down to the stage and start dancing. Less than 15 minutes after we do so everyone started filling up the area and we were left with no place to even shake our ass. Losers... we dance you dance... hump.

Day 4
Went sparring with Ateneo De Manila University. The university there is great. They have like chapels in every wing, giving 3 masses a day, and a centralised church in the middle. Wow... Even my church don`t have 3 masses a day. They have more chapels and churches in the university than the whole of Kajang town. lol

We wanted to spar with De La Salle. But when we arrive at 8.30pm, it`s a little too late as we have to head to Baguio at midnight, by bus. We met them though, as a sign of courtesy. I mean after all the arrangement, we can`t just say 'bye, we got a bus to catch" and ciow. So, we had dinner together and we went to the bus station. Waited at the bus station for nearly 2 hours. How we spend the time there? We sang. Sang every single song we can think of. English songs, Chinese songs... we just sang and sang regardless of everybody that`s around. And off we left for Baguio.

Day 5
Arrive Baguio at 6am in the morning. It`s already bright by then. (sun sets at 6pm). It was quite cold up here (Baguio is in the mountains, something like Cameron Highlands), but I certainly expect it to be colder. Rather dissapointed. Oh well.. To compensate that, we had a nice hotel. The best in Baguio mind you. The rooms are like president`s suit. Superb. Really really nice. I`ll post up the pictures once I get back to Malaysia.

Day 6
We went for a local tour with the other debators. Visited Tam Am Village and the Phillippines Military Academy. There was nothign much, except for some really weird names and carving such as Fertality Hut (yea, the Hut you use to ahem), and some cravings that resembels a male organ. There call it the door bell. The miliatary academy was a nice place to walk around. There have really nice sceneray of the surrounding area, such as the mountains. What I really like is their obstacle course. It had everything, from rope bridge, to rope swing, comander crawl, etc etc. They say that they`ll have to do this every single day. How fun is that :)

At the end of the day, we debated one round and we headed home. Everyone was pretty tired but yet, refuse to give in. We chilled at the lobby, pulling everyone who passes by to drink. We got University of Baguio`s choir to sing us a song. Gosh, there can really sing.... superb.. really really nice. I missed choir in a way though. sigh.

Day 7.
Had 3 rounds today. Really really tired, but here am I blogging. Would really like to whin about the motions.. There are all so Phillippino centric. I mean, the motions are like "This house regrets Jose Rizal`s place of pride in the Phillipino consciences." Uhh... I don`t even know much about him. And this Phippines people study about him in their curriculor. Nevertheless, we debated though and we got through. 3 more rounds to go. I`m so tired.. I want to go back :(

to be continue..

Phillippines !!!!

I`m paying 5 bucks to do blog this :P

Gosh, If I`m sober now, I probably won`t do this.
Anyway, this is day 1 and day 2.

We arrive at Clark Field yesterday, about 70 km from Manila. We went there because Air Asia only flies there and not Manila. So we stayed there for one day.

We walk around in the nite, and saw the red light district. We had Jollybee (mcdonalds equivalent) for dinner, and lunhean ( smoke bbq pork ) for supper. Gosh, the pork was so good.... wish I had more. The inn we`re staying on the other hand, was terrible. The facility in general was satisfying. THe bed was nice, the air con was nice, the TV have the whole set of Astro`s channel.. but, the water smells like rust. It was so bad that we don`t even dare to wash our hands with it. We used mineral water to brush our teeth and wash our face in the morning. None of us took bath that day.

The next day, we went back to the airport to meet guys from Cyberjaya. Then we headed to Manila, which is 2 hours away. Took another 2 hours to settle on our accomodation. Fought our the price for quite sometime before we finally come to a truce. Nonetheless, it`s a little expensive. Roughly about 18 ringgit per person per night. And that`s cramming 5 person to 2 beds... gah

We went out for dinner and sosials in the night. The dinner was superb. We called a few dished, namely sisig, calamaries, some lamb thing and vegetable. Everyone of them taste better than anything I had in Melaka. Superb Superb.... and the beer here is cheap. really cheap. Big Boy made us to play some games that challenge the Melaka`s contingent versus Cyber`s contingent for a beer drinking challenge. Guess what, the Melaka contingent, who never really drink before, won the cyber`s contingent. WE had Suria, Melanie and Adelene who drank like a Indian! (wait, Suria is an Indian)

Anyway we are all half drunk now as I`m blogging this :P glad that I still make sense ill now. Or did I ? :P


SMU IV - Singapore

This is what SMU IV was all about.

52 teams, lots of Indians, and cute chicks.

Forget about the 3rd one. Though there is quite a few of them :P

Lots of good teams participated. SMU have 9 participating teams with half of them breaking into the Semi. The other participating Unis are, NTU, NUS, TP, MMU Cyber, DLSU (Philippines), MUIC, (Thailand), NLS, (India).
Another thing to note is that, non of the MMU team broke (including cyber), which should give you a fair idea on the level of the debaters there. BTW, for all those who doesn`t know, I`ve never heard of any IV that MMU cyber have never break before.

These are the motions.
Round 1 - THS learn to stop worrying and love North Korea`s bomb.
-duh.. so lame.. so predictable...

Round 2 - THW criminalise genocide denials.
-also lame..

Round 3 - THW will make World of Warcraft players rejoin the real world.
- WILZ!! I SO HOPE YOU READ THIS... i laugh my ass out when the motion was released, though the debate sux because the round I was adjuricating, the opening goverment don`t even know that this is an online game.. sigh...

Round 4 - THW tie development aid to the establishment of micro credit financing
- Now tell me, anyone knows about micro credit financing? :P -

Semifinals - THBT ASEAN should use sanctions to control polution.
- Haze haze and more haze-

Finals - THW use shame as punishment.
- Shell and it`s evil dead in Nigeria-

Well, it was a great IV in general. Had pretty much fun in cyber`s company. Alcohol, alcohol and more alcohol. Dale made me drink half a bottle of Long Island in one glup. Shame to admit, it does make me a little tipsy, yet, I wasn`t drunk, or at least I thought so. Had more alcohol after that mwahaahaha...

Can`t wait for Phillipines :)

The mooncake celebration without any mooncake,

Yea yea, call it an excuse if you want. I just want to take a break from the exams, and celebrate with the rest, before we go back for the holidays. Who knows... maybe something happen in Phillipines and I won`t.... (shhhh! choi!!)

Anyway... this will be my last entry before I go to Singapore. Hopefully, I can make another entry when I get back next Monday before I leave for Phill. on Tuesday.

Back to the lanterns. Well basically these are the pictures. Dechiper yourself what happened.

Those the nature of this celebration is rather tradisional, the method we use are totaly opposite. For example, we use the gas stove to start the fire instead of using fire started and smoked urself to death. Then of cuz, we didn`t fan the fire.. we brought a fan to the fire instead. We have the fire that we needed (actually, a little more than we need), in no time. The only problem later is food becomes carbon faster that putting a chicken wing on the scwer.

Nice and enjoyable day though. Really glad it went well. Thanks guys. See ya all next semester.

Debating troubles

keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:05:16 PM): you wanna talk/?
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:07:24 PM): yeah
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:07:36 PM): speak
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:07:45 PM): something bothering you?
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:07:51 PM): nope..
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:08:07 PM): unless u mean teaming up with quek.. yes
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:08:11 PM): i have to rego by 12am.
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:08:19 PM): ive got 2 things to talk to you about.
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:08:23 PM): well do the 2nd one first
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:08:50 PM): cyber is having is having probs rego for phillipines
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:09:01 PM): they cant meet the n-1 for adjudication
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:09:14 PM): so they requested for adeline
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:09:16 PM): ok
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:09:18 PM): that`s fine
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:09:27 PM): since they saw our list of potential candidates
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:09:29 PM):
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:10:02 PM): so. will that means any subsidies at all? (prays prays)
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:10:28 PM): i dont think its ethical, its a favour.
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:10:31 PM): haha
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:10:33 PM): ok ok
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:10:36 PM): no prob with that
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:10:58 PM): thats good.
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:11:01 PM): first issue.
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:11:03 PM): singapore
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:11:07 PM): how muct time do you need?
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:11:28 PM): i don`t need any time to consider.. i`ve already told haque about this. clearly..
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:11:42 PM): i won`t team up with quek.. for his benefit and mine
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:11:52 PM): (though my reasons are a little selfish)
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:12:15 PM): first off.. quek should stop debating
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:12:18 PM): selfish??
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:12:24 PM): not as in stop debating completely
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:12:31 PM): he needs to sit and watch.. proper debates
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:12:34 PM): adjudicate or something
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:12:49 PM): no one can learn from being in the low rooms all the time
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:13:15 PM): and he needs to know how proper debate is bering run... the points.. the analysis
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:13:37 PM): everything...
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:13:46 PM): and me..
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:13:49 PM): well you see alex, no offense, but at some debates the seniors feel at instances quek gives better speeches than you
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:14:15 PM): that`s why i said. my reasons are a little selfish
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:14:18 PM): the reason ull are paired up is that ull complement each other..keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:14:48 PM): pairing me with haque or any seniors.. u guys will probably feel the same.. as much as quek wants to learn.. I want to learn..
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:14:53 PM): I`ve debated with quek all the time
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:15:01 PM): well then if you hav that attitude, is justified to ask how much u should be allowed to represent mmu melaka at any tournaments..
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:15:18 PM): u c we have started to function as a proper society as of now
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:15:23 PM): you gusy are seriously taking this advantage as I`m one of those few ppl who does have a problem with ques
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:15:24 PM): quek
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:15:45 PM): and in proper societies with less members these are the issues you have to deal with
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:16:21 PM): why don`t u or haque partner him.. i`ll adjurdicate
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:17:08 PM): for the very same reasons too right
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:17:16 PM): the thing is that haque and i want to go to worlds, on self funds, so we need to see our compaitability
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:17:32 PM): plus we have never partnered
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:17:39 PM): wait.. quek say ur not going
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:17:53 PM): well firstly tell me.. do u think quek is not a debater of your standard??Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:18:32 PM): well i have some passport problems which does not gimme 100%confirmation
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:18:36 PM): but ill do anything to go
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:18:37 PM): i don`t know what`s my standard is.. but if you want to ask whether he is even fit to make a proper debate.. as of now.. no
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:18:50 PM): u think you are?
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:18:54 PM): seasonal
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:19:13 PM): sometimes yes.. sometimes no.. and as much as I want.. I would like to adjuricate
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:19:18 PM): adjudicate*
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:19:25 PM): and not be a team player?
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:19:44 PM): you are going to debate at philippines
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:20:00 PM): i told haque that i wanted to adjuricate.. and he refuse
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:20:12 PM): anyway.. i told you.. we`re aren`t going to learn anything from each other
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:20:14 PM): well you see the way i see it if you are better debater if you can lead a junior.
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:20:24 PM): the blind doesn`t lead the blind
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:21:18 PM): if I`m going to sacrifice 2 holidays, and money, I want to learn something from it
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:23:39 PM): i respect your right to choice, but can you try one last time for which we will never pair you with him unless the tryouts deicde that you are to paired up
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:24:47 PM): btw if this was an asians try would be with quek
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:25:38 PM): Dale dale.. please.. for one time.. think in my shoe... I know i loathed low level debates.. whether I`m adjuriating or debating it. Maybe you don`t know.. but ask Siew or anyone else.. I go crazy adjuricating a lousy deabte.. I just want to avoid that as much as possible... and if i go with quek.. with both of us not even half as good.. we`ll both stuck in that room through out the debate and neither any of us will learn anything
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:25:49 PM): and btw.. if this is ASIANS.. I DEFINETLY won`t go..
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:26:01 PM): definitely*
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:27:03 PM): i understand i am queks only / best friend
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:27:19 PM): but i am your friend the same time
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:27:40 PM): look.. it`s not about u or quek.. actualyl one of the reasons why I don`t want to go to philippines is the same one
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:27:55 PM): personally ihav seen quek at better debates, in the law debates, he has his good times and he has his bad times, lik you
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:27:57 PM): but i go anyway. because haque wants me to go ...
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:28:12 PM): he wants you to go as a debater.
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:28:13 PM): and as a consolation.. adelene`s oging also
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:28:31 PM): ok thn debate with adeline
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:28:41 PM): that would sux too
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:30:04 PM): wait wait, if adeline is going and you are going and quck so we are sending one team and 3 adjudicators.
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:30:15 PM): wait wait
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:30:34 PM): adelene`s not going to sing
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:30:39 PM): i told you that already
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:30:49 PM): shows wht a pussy these three adjudicators are..not to debate whn they can form a team, also this will not reflect our reputation
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:31:12 PM): ok i dont get ht ur saying
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:31:19 PM): neways i hav 5 mins to send the rego forms
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:31:23 PM): u in or out?
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:31:39 PM): don`t get what i`m saying?
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:31:42 PM): ok. two things
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:31:49 PM): 1) Adelene`s not going to Singapore
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:31:56 PM): 2) I`m not debating with Quek...
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:31:59 PM): the rest.. your call
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:33:36 PM): well you have not put me in a position to make it your call...debating is a mature business and both you and quek have to mature..that is my call..thats what ifeell.. i also feel by this decision of yours you hav shown that you do not respect the judegement of your seniors
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:35:17 PM): and at the same time. what I said about adjudicating is better for quek than debating.. does not even go through ur consideration
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:36:02 PM): my decision is still the same.. i gave u the conditions. you can already get an answer form there
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:36:06 PM):
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:36:32 PM): well you are not at a position to offer any should think about that b4 u start taking control
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:36:37 PM): honestly speaking
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:36:39 PM): ..
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:37:27 PM): we have bigger plans for you, as you hav been a dedicated member, but now the thing is how capable are you to be a team player and be worthy of our vision for you
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:38:13 PM): if a mojorty of the cyber squad can pair up with juniors at hte mmu iv we do not c any problems with you and quek
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:38:31 PM): LOOK.. I`M not a senior and quek`s not a junior
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:38:37 PM): I`ve already team up with him countless time.
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:38:48 PM): i know what our progress are.. and I know what we can learn from there and what we can`t
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:39:19 PM): and right now. I KNOW that we are`nt going to learn anything if we are going there to debate with both of us in a team
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:39:28 PM): if you even care about ur members imporiving
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:39:34 PM): listen i do not have the energy to explain things rite nw that i htot u wud already know by now
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:39:39 PM): neways time is wasting..
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:39:53 PM): illlet you knw if we are sending two adjudicators
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:40:01 PM): ok
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:40:35 PM): u can put me out if you care so much about reputation.. (us sending two adjuricators when we can form a team)
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:40:48 PM): just so u know.. and I would really want quek to adjudicated
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:41:02 PM): ciow dude
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:41:39 PM): alrite fine
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:41:51 PM): we are sending two adjudicators
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:42:21 PM): i respect your decision bcoz its quek
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:42:39 PM): huh
Dale Becker (10/10/2006 11:43:03 PM): we are sending two adjudictors..
keen1987 (10/10/2006 11:43:18 PM): ok..

what`s with all those character assasination, saying that I sux then talk about cyber`s senior pairing up with junior.

People will say anything just to have it their way......

Right now, I pissed and I don`t even feel like going anywhere.. not even Phillipines. Go to hell man.

I don`t care what you, or the club thinks of me. I don`t care if I`m not some kind of prominent debator to be. I don`t really care if I even going to be the top debators in the world. In fact.. I fucxxxxx hate debating.

I debate because I want to learn. I debate because I want to know how people think (mature ones). And if I`m not getting any of these.. why should I debate in the first place.

*and Quek, if you are reading this.. which I really hope u do. It`s really time for you to sit back and stop talking (debating). The conventional idea is to talk less and listen more.. Then when you know more..than only start speaking. That goes the same for me.. and a lot of people.

Money money money - they`re all gone.

There are so many things I wanted to blog about, yesterday. But my computer broke down... of all time. Now, I`m lost my mood to blog. Why? I`m broke. Really broke. This month is probably the poorest month. Actually, I said that last month.....

My power supply burn, and I replace not only the power supply, I bought a DVD burner as well. Which is really, I don`t know why, except to back up my 3gigg worth of pictures. So, that`s 200 bugs(bucks) burn...

Then as soon as my exam finishes on Thursday, I`ll leave for Singapore on Friday. What for? The same thing.. bleh... Will be back from SIngapore on Sunday or Monday and then on Tuesday will leave for Philippines... for the same reason.

Don`t ask how much the cost.. I`m afraid to know myself. Looking at my bank account decreasing from 4 digit to 3 digit.....Want to cry.. :( I could have bought 2 new computers! or a laptop....

Actualy I really wanted a laptop.. so I can carry it around to play Dota.... but.. already spend so much. The only consolation I hope to get is that I`ll enjoy Philippines... please.. let it be good. Or let me win or something :P Wink.

*PS. I do hope I`ll find internet access there, or not, there won`t be update for another half a month. Will only be back on the 1st of Nov.

For now, I need to play more game... ops.. study for applied statics... ciow :)

Money money money - they`re all gone.

There is so many things I wanted to blog about yesterday. But my computer broke down... of all time. This month is probably the poorest month. Actually, I said that last month.....

My power supplied burn, and I replace not only a power supply, I bought a DVD burner as well. Which is really, I don`t knwo why, except to back up my 3gigg worth of pictures. So, that`s 200 bugs(bucks) burn...

Then as soon as my exam finishes on Thursday, I`ll leave for Singapore on Friday. What for? The same thing.. bleh... Will be back from SIngapore on Sunday or Monday and then on Tuesday will leave for Philippines... for the same reason.

Don`t ask how much the cost.. I`m afraid to know myself. Looking at my bank account decreasing from 4 digit to 3 digit.....Want to cry.. :( I could have bought 2 new computers! or a laptop....

Actualy I really wanted a laptop.. so I can carry it around to play Dota.... but.. already spend so much. The only consolation I hope to get is that I`ll enjoy Philippines... please.. let it be good. Or let me win or something :P Wink.

*PS. I do hope I`ll find internet access there, or not, there won`t be update for another half a month. Will only be back on the 1st of Nov.

For now, I need to play more game... ops.. study for applied statics... ciow :)

Mooncake Festival

Maybe I`m lonely, maybe I`m bored. Maybe, I`m too free, maybe I have nothing to do.
But here`s a lantern for you...

Happy Lantern`s Day.. wait.. there isn`t such thing... Happy Mooncake Festival.
That`s better :)

Visitor in the night....

I was on my way home when something caught my eye....

A dog was walking pass me... and it didn`t bark...
I thought it was adorable....
So I park my bike and go and have a look at the dog.

The dog didn`t came for food..
It just sit when I sit..(squat)
Stand when I stand..
Walk when I walk...

It follow me wherever I go..
So I didn`t go in my house..
I just sat there.. with the dog..
For about 15 minutes or so...
Finally the dog say goodbye....

Here`s the picture of it :)

Actually, it`s whiter... nvm... hee..

I don`t understand....

Thermodynamics is a funny subject. The first time you go through it, you don`t understand it at all. The second time you go through it, you think you understand it, except for one or two points. The third time you go through it, you know you don`t understand it, but by that time you are so used to the subject, it doesn`t bother you anymore.
-Arnold Sommerfield-

It`s terrible...

I tried, but I still don`t understand. Maybe if I get better lecturers, read the book 1000x and given enough time, I might understand a few (except for one or two points).

It`s so horrible that I can`t even ask the lecturer what any questions because I don`t understand what I don`t understand in the first place.

I can`t go in the exam room without knowing what I know.

Help me if you can.... in 2 days,

I hate thermodynamics........

Those days..

Some how, examination periods are times where I have too much free time, but I can`t use them. I mean, there are no classes... I can`t go anywhere because it`s exams, I can`t do anything..... Usually, ppl study at this momments..... usually.

I of cuz, could hardly follow the norm. I almost give up... studying for the sake of studying. Something that I was very agaisnt last time. But really, I don`t feel like doing anything. I felt lifeless on my first day of exams... I can`t even feel nervous in examination. It seems that these days are so much difference from those days...

I remember times where examinations are a good thing because it means, no homeworks, no class, and rewards for scoring good grades......

I remember that I`ll study 2 or 3 weeks earlier before the exams to make sure I score.

I remember , I use to go tuition because I felt classes in school are not enough... (nowadays, I skipped class)

I remember then, I actually look forward to go to school.

I remember laughing in class, joking.. poking Elizabeth and disturbing everyone else.

I remember annoying Aqtar, (the head prefect) so much, that he finally lost his patient and hit me.. which is fun :)

I remember stealing 'smarties' and 'holicks' from Ei leen, Chermayn and Tracy in Miss Lee`s tuition .

I remember capturing Pei Nei using Jane`s mobile phone and she always tries to avoid it.

I remember the days when I was actually happy when I wake up early in the morning.. and say, today will be a better day.

I remember going to church twice a day, and was very proud of it.

I remember going pasar malam on tuesday nights with Jo-n, and visit Bobby ( it`s a dog) where I`ll play with him for an hour.

I remember those days, I don`t hate myself.

I wanted so bad.. to go back.... but I can`t... and I won`t....
life have to move on... or does it?

It`s about time..

Being so caught up with following up events, games and magic.. I totaly forget to be myself.

Yea... about time to whine... actually, I`m suprise.. exams in 2 days and I haven`t been whinning the shit out of this blog....

Means, that I never knew exams was this close. Also means that I didn`t prepare. Also means that I have to finish all the tutorials and past year of a particular subject in one day.. also means, that I`m very likely to screw up....

paranoid paranoid...

(again.. i would like everyone to temporary ignore me... i`m giong crazy at the momment... if I do approach you and start speaking nonsense.. you shoud know why. )


MMU Closed Rapid Chess Tournament.

Response wasn`t as good as I expected, but was substantial enough to run a tournament.
Since I`m directing this event, I couldn`t join.. All I do is,

- answer people`s question and complains
- write down the scores
- settle computerise pairings manually because it screwed up.

Basically, doing all the rubbish work. These are a few shots which I took during the tourney.

a) Adelene boasting her first win of the tournament. :P

b) Playing tic-tac toe (is it spelled 'toe'?) cuz we`re too bored.

c) actually it`s not tic-tac toe....

And that`s about it.. yea.. lame lame.. It`s chess.. what do you expect.
At least the fun part is that, we had steamboat at night. :)

* that`s Su Wang wondering why fish balls are round...

I know, I know.. it`s nice.. nyeh nyeh.. making u hungry.

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